So me and her have flirted a ton, and sexted a couple of times. I know it's very immoral of us. We've both been trying to stop. It started off innocent when her and her partner were taking a break, it got intense, feelings happened, they got back together. That sort of thing.
There's been a pattern I've recognized. She initiates it, I entertain it, and then it gets pretty intense and then it just stops. Well until she starts telling me how things feel off between us and it doesn't feel right. She then begins flirting and I inevitably take the bait because I lack self control.
Recently we haven't because she's been with her partner over Christmas break. But we still text everyday and plan to hangout soon. Everything's good.
I don't know if it's because she sees that I'm pulling away from that, that it makes her want to make me continue giving her that attention.
Like I am trying to move on. The way I do that is by just leaving the things we've said and done in the past. For her, she brings it up every time. I don't know if it's simply boredom when it's time for her partner to work and go to school or what.
I just feel anxious. I love her. I just want to be her friend and nothing else, but she won't let it go.
Why me??