My bf and I have been dating for almost 3 years and he’s always been a sweet caring person. Today I was having a very stressful time at work which he knows because when I was talking to him about it, my eye was unintentionally twitching. I asked him if he could meet me at the gas station when I got off work to help me open my gas tank (the mechanic broke it so it needs to people to open it) he filled up my gas tank without me asking then I offered to take me to dinner where he had a few drinks. After dinner, he said to meet him at the gas station again to get a little snack. When we walked into the gas station, we were playing around (like just talking silly and joking around) when all of a sudden he pinched my n!pples. From the corner of my eye, I saw someone staring right at us. I instinctively covered my chest with my arms, he asked if he hurt me, then try to put his arm around me I said no, then mumbled something about being embarrassed, brushed his arm off me and walked away from him. I texted him saying I’m just gonna go home then left. When he got home, he asked me what was going on. I asked him what does he mean? What’s going on? He said after he tickled me I just disappeared. I told him he did not tickle me that he pinched my n!pples and I was humiliated. He said no that he was trying to tickle my armpits. I told him I felt his fingers pinch my n!pples. He said he has never done that, and never will, especially in public. He tossed me some snacks that he bought me, then left the room. I threw the snacks across the room. I’m so upset. I feel like I’m being gaslit. He saying he didn’t touch my n!pples but I know what I felt. He’s on the porch right now, which is usually where he goes when he doesn’t want to be bothered. I just need some advice on what to do.
Important notes:
He does always get upset at me when I make dirty jokes in public which makes me wonder if he really didn’t mean to pinch my n!pples but then why wouldn’t he just apologize for doing so and said he didn’t mean to?
I’ve also been SA which he knows about
(edit) the jokes I make are “that’s what she said” and “you’re mom” jokes.
I’m saw some people in the comments saying the tension seems high and that’s because I’ve been getting in the habit of bottling my emotions due to past family issues and the fact that every single time I try and talk to him about how I feel in certain situations he starts feeling bad for himself and it turns into me trying to make him feel better… I’ve talked to him about how I’m going to start bottling up my emotions if something doesn’t change and he said that he doesn’t want me to do that and said he is allowed to have emotions too…