Need advice here. I want to be a good wife.
My husband and I have been married for 2 years (28F, 32 M). He HATES talking. Just a quiet guy, emotional stuff is just boring and too complicated for him- literally stresses him out. Doesn't say I love you, give compliments, or anything a lady wants to hear. He is literally perfect in every other way, though, as far as being a husband goes.
I'm a words of affirmation woman. I found myself pressuring him to talk to me, to say anything at all, conversation about something besides work. It made him increasingly distant, annoyed, until he just started avoiding me altogether and hanging out with guy friends instead of being around me.
Finally, he told me to find someone else to talk to.
So I did. A super nice guy on reddit. I drew lines, he respects them. Just friends… With a hint of romance.
Hubby reads the messages and has no issues with it. Seems to be relieved that I'm not bothering him anymore.
But… That's not what I want. I want this emotional bond with my husband, not some other guy. Its so fun and addicting, but it also feels wrong. I don't actually want anyone else.
Am I cheating emotionally? Because if that's what I'm doing, I won't do it. I'm not a cheater. I just don't want to feel rejected anymore.
Advice?