We have been together for 13 years, we have been married for 12. We married a week after my son was born. We also have a 17 year old daughter that is my bonus child. My wife is my best friend I want to do everything with her. I have absolutely no reason to want to walk away from her or my family. But I can’t connect with her on a deeper love connection. But I do love her! And I feel like she loves me but she is not in love with me. I feel like we are just playing a part for our kids. Because we her and I come from single parent homes. So our priorities are our kids. My daughter is a traveling competition dancer. And she is a beast! But that life is for them, my wife her daughter and my mother in law! On one of these occasions I had dinner with an old friend, her I dated briefly like 20 years ago. It didn’t work out because I just wanted sex! 19 years old boy! But we connected and stayed friends and flirted with each through facebook messenger. Keeping it a healthy friendship only. We almost immediately connected as soon as our eyes met, game over but we both stopped and put my family first. Minutes turned into hours, she touched my arm. I felt her warmth on my skin. It felt amazing, we held hand and did end up kissing but stopping at that. We separated and left. It’s been 2 weeks and she is all I can think about. I feel amazing like on a natural high, when I think of her. I feel like with her by my side I could rule the world! Or burn it down to! And we haven’t even had sex in like 20 years but damn she excites me when I think of her. I’m afraid that I’ve found that deeper love connection I’ve been urning for. But I have a family that I cannot turn my back on. Losing my family would completely ruin me on a mental level! Financially I could care less they can have it all, I’ll just step away. I couldn’t feel right by taking anything from them. I know I am a pos I feel it, I know my wife feels it to. Fortunately for me I absolutely did not have physical sex with her, but I wanted to and jacked!