Hey, y’all. This is my first time in one of these groups, so please be kind! I’ve never came. I masturbate very frequently, I have always had a very high sex drive, and I love sex. However, I just never truly feel satisfied. I’ve been with my current boyfriend for four years, and I’ve never climaxed or came.
We lost our virginity’s together, and I figured things would just get good with time. But honestly, I’m dissatisfied, I’ve told him, and I think he’s at a loss with how to help me. I hate the way he fingers me, I don’t like the way him eating me out feels, and he is only 3in or so, and he usually cums after a few thrusts.
He’s so great about making me not feel bad about it, but I’m really over it. I feel guilty when he finishes and I’m still in the mood. We don’t have sex often, so that doesn’t help either. I alwaysss want to be fucked, and it gets in my head that he isn’t attracted to me because he doesn’t want to. I hate that I can never finish with him. I’ve thought maybe this is something that I need to do with just myself where there is no pressure, but I have yet to have that work either. I love using toys, but again, not even a climax. I do really well with penetration AND clit stimulation, but I find it hard to pull that off alone, lol.
I’m kind of in to the idea of an open relationship, and I know my boyfriend would be okay with it, he’s let me in the past. I just can’t help but wonder if it’s him/I, or him. I just don’t know if guys would be okay with that. I work in the public eye, so I’m embarrassed to get on the apps. I’m also a curvy girl, and I just can’t imagine a guy would want to be with someone that can’t cum AND that 😭
Long story short, I don’t even know what this post is, and I’m fucking sorry! I am posting this and letting you do what you want with it?