I (30f) am overweight and taller than the average man, not really attractive, I'm socially awkward asf and I'm not a girly girl. I have always been the one who only gets attention from guys who are looking for a quick hookup and nothing more. I've always felt "okay" with that because at least I'm still "f*ckable". People generally don't like me and I don't really understand why because I try to be a nice person but people wont ever invite me to do things or hang out with me and I always get pushed aside because there's someone better than me around. I really hate it but I've learned to push those feelings aside and would rather be by myself now.
I have two incredible exes who have made me feel loved and accepted but the thing is that I met them while I was working abroad for a few years and both relationships ended due to me leaving their countries. In my own country I'm far from the ideal girl and I've pretty much come to terms with being alone for the rest of my life? But I'm curious to hear if anyone has a similar experience in lofe or if you know of someone like me who ended up happily married?
I do get that the whole post sounds like I'm feeling sorry for myself which I do sometimes but I'm okay most of the time haha