To preface, I’m in my first ever relationship, with a cis man. (I’m ftm, in my twenties, but that doesn’t really matter since I’m pre-everything)
We’ve been dating for a few months, and of course we have started to have sex. Before him, I’ve never done penetration before except some toys on occasion. I’ve noticed I’ve gotten tears every time we’re intimate in that way.
Now, it’s gotten slightly worse. We had to skip penetration entirely at one point cause I was simply too tight. Just a few weeks after, we did it again, and I had tearing again.
The sex itself is good in the moment and I love it! But the days after hurt so bad. Will this lead to something more serious down the road?
Also I’m on birth control, we do around an hour of foreplay, use lube, fingers, everything we can, and have done so every time.