Through a combination of self isolation and circumstances, I’m kind of more mistrustful than ever of other people and that shows in my unwillingness to be open about my troubles, to be vulnerable, and overall be comfortable around people at the slightest sign of (what i perceive to be) dislike. I feel like this is at least somewhat something on my part that I should work on, but I don’t really know how. People feel so scary, like they’ll use everything about me against me to make me feel even more awful about myself. I feel so uncomfortable around people, even if they’ve been nothing but kind to me. I’m still worried about them turning on me because I’m “not enough” or “too much to handle” 😐
If anyone has any good tips, please let me know. I feel a bit more comfortable with being lonely now, but the horrible anxiety of judgement for being alone and being socially anxious haunts me in every social/public experience.