He's a total sweetheart and such gentleman with patience. And frankly… I want to try out more with him. However, like the title gives away, I'm scared.
To give a bit of context: I [28F] used to live in a toxic household which never talked about sex(uallity). I was shamed if anything came up regarding this subject. So I became silent on that matter. Until I met my first ex two years ago. His sex drive was incredibly high and pressuring that my body shut off even more. Second ex, same story. Oh, and intercourse hurts on top of it all. Both lost patience in the end and leaving me with second to none experience.
But I feel safe with my boyfriend now. Just the fear is still here. He said "you can ask/do anything you want". That was pretty scary as I don't know anything… Will I be rejected if I'm not good enough? How is this supposed to go? What if he doesn't like this? Just some of the racing thought.
But even though I'm scared, my body (and mind too ironically) longing for intimacy. I feel it. So, I made the choice to look for tips and tricks instead of be consumed by the fear.
Dear readers. I still feel ashamed to ask especially at this age. But I can't live like this. Would you help me by sharing some simple things, moves or beginner friendly advice what I can do to suggest we do?
Thank you 🙂