I decided not to go because I would have no support system and he would be away for 8 days. I asked him to ask his manager qns about the roster etc and nothing could be confirmed. I basically just had to uproot my life without knowing what would happen and how it would go. It's been over a year now since he left and we have decided to separate. I still have days where I regret not going, maybe it would have been an adventure. Just a note, I am very close with my family and also know that I struggle being alone and lacking motivation. I know it doesn't really matter now but what would you have done in my situation?