I just need some support at the moment and need to get my thoughts out into the void. I went on a couple of dates with this guy whom I thought we were a great match and it felt like it was going to be a slow burn. Unfortunately, when I asked to spend some time with him after I hadn’t seen him in about a week or so, he stated that he had been reflecting and felt like he wasn’t fully invest into creating a relationship with me. As sad I was, I reflected on it and I could see what he meant and I realized that I felt somewhat similar. And that’s okay!
I highly respect him for disclosing this to me and being mindful on the fact that we were both dating with intention. So I have no bad blood on him at all. He was so great and I truly hope he finds someone! I did send him a long ass message about my reflection and how I appreciated his time and I wishing the best. I kinda regret it lol because he didn’t say anything but I also wasn’t expecting that either. However, I’m also not gonna apologize for my being genuine self.
I think I’m just sad and disappointed on how this experience was so great with him. It was the first time I genuinely felt emotionally safe with someone. I think I’m grieving the feeling of safety and what the future could’ve been. And now I have to go back into the dating scene. Again. It’s awful. I just get these negative feelings that I won’t find my person even though I know that might not be the case. And rejection is a part of dating but it does suck and it’s so bloody draining, ya know?
Anyways, I would just love to hear yall experience with something similar or some supportive feedback. I’m the last single friend in all my friend group so no one really understands how I’m feeling at the moment. I’m feeling a little lonely. Thanks 💕