My wife, whom I do love, has complex PTSD. When she gets triggered, she stays that way for a while and it is like hell on earth. She directs anything and everythingnegative towards me. She brings up every thing I did wrong in the past and makes me feel like I'm nothing more than trash that needs to be thrown away. It doesn't help that she's an alcoholic, unemployed, and not contributing financially to the household. All she does all day is scroll facebook and talk to ChatGPT while I work 12 hour shifts to barely keep our heads above water. She threatens to leave me all the time too. She constantly makes me feel inadequate. I'm not really sure what to do. Some days it just feels like I would be better off dead. Just wanted to get this off my chest because I don't know where else to talk about it.