I feel like a teenager writing this 😂
So I have a male friend who 5 hours with feels like just a hour of time with him. I miss him dearly when he is not around. And!! I am extremely forgiving and have a lot of grace toward him and him immaturity sometimes. He is extremely hard working and smart. But, dumb with women. He's overcame a lot. And he blushes and looks at me with like I'm his favorite slice of cake but with a softness. He just full of joy and relaxed when around me. We do flirt and um…i asked if my flirting makes him uncomfortable and he said no. I feel a lot of sexual tension. And he has slapped my ass before, and I liked it a lot where I would like him to do it again.
He reassures me when he does something that pisses me off lol He fixes whatever makes me upset. When I have my moments he lets me have those moments and then we talk about it and moment is forgiven. And I have fallen for this guy. And I don't think I can be his friend any longer even though none of this screams "we just saw each other as friends."
I want to talk to him about this…and just be like can we have like hang out sessions and regular sex with each other? Because you make me melt and I could forgive you for any wrongdoing.
Should I or should I not? And should I do it in person or over phone because he's working a lot and getting ready for tactical training with his job (law enforcement)? I know there is a possibly of rejection and I am fine with that because I don't think I can be anything but 🍌🍑🍒 buddies. Now I would like the bump sessions to be at a hotel though.