Hi,
As the title states I've been masturbating for years and always noticed that when I was about to reach orgasm, my penis would start to go soft. When I say years I mean like 5-6 years now I think. Could honestly be even more than that. I should clarify that I'm not COMPLETELY flaccid. It's more like at 30- to 50% boner maybe. But I feel like I could orgasm at 0 to be honest. I probably have at some point.
This didn't really bother me until I realized it also happened during sex. I have been having issues maintaining an erection during sex for years now. I always thought it was due to too much porn but now I'm not even sure (even though in a way it definitely is). I'm terrified and feel like I've ruined my life.
I truly did not know this was normal and I've orgasmed hard before so it's not like completely ALWAYS like that. But it's starting to feel like I can't even stay hard anymore. I don't even know what a Urologist could do for me. Combining the performance anxiety and now this revelation, I'm truly scared.
I'm looking for any suggestions or advice or want to know if I'm over thinking this. I'm genuinely panicking and am open to almost anything. I would do anything to go back in time and tell my younger self to stop.