I’m at a loss… I (25F) don’t think my boyfriend(28M) is attracted to me and it’s breaking me. When we have sex I feel like nothing but more than a hole for him to jerk off into. I give him head almost everytime before and yet he never takes any time to turn me on at all. Doesn’t put my boobs in his mouth, doesn’t eat me out, nothing. I said something tonight and was like “I want you to rub on me or kiss on me or something” and still got nothing. I can only orgasm when using my vibe and I tried to use it tonight and we never do any other position other than me on my side (which makes me feel like he doesn’t want to look at me) so obviously that makes it a little more complicated to use my vibe and tonight I just gave up. It’s like he doesn’t care about me and sex is only for HIS pleasure. Once he cums that’s it. No aftercare, no cuddling, nothing. It makes me want to cry. I don’t know what to do.
ETA: this has nothing to do with the sex aspect but he has told me for months “oh I’m just not that lovey dovey” “I’m not like that” etc etc and I have saw messages between him and his ex/baby mama and he was telling her “you’re always beautiful” “i wish I could be there to just rub your back and help” when he NEVER compliments me unless I force it out of him.. I don’t feel like I’m downright ugly and it also makes me upset because why would he be with me if he didn’t find me attractive?