Last night my husband was gone visiting family and I had the best night. I thought I had severe anxiety but when he’s gone I feel so relaxed. The kids and I laughed and joked throughout dinner. FaceTimed my parents without anyone criticizing me in the background. I got the kids to bed on time (without having to tell my husband to stay on task 10x), cleaned the kitchen, vacuumed, did laundry all with zero anxiety. Then I watched a crime show without anyone telling me that I’m wasting my life away not being productive.
The load in the dryer sat there all night. No one put it on the bed and threatened divorce when I say I’m too tired to fold it.
He’s going to therapy on the 31st but I’m not hopeful. He recently told his friends I just can’t handle being a SAHM and then they proceeded to lecture me on how I should get a job for my mental health. I set the record straight that it’s his constant criticism that puts me on edge. They then turned the tables on him telling him that his behavior is unacceptable. But what world does he live in? Suggestions welcome.