Im super stressed about this and I’m sorry if this is poorly worded, I love my girlfriend And she was the first person I have had a real real relationship with (meaning like sex, making out the whole 9 yards) and it’s been since my sophomore year now but I am going to college next year and I believe that I’m going to find another person who is better for me, makes me laugh makes me happy. This girl I’m dating is really good to me but she doesn’t make me really happy, she really likes being around me and we have a whole bunch of sentimental stuff and she wants to have a family with me in the future, I don’t know if I want that because she doesn’t match my humor and she easily stresses me out and she does things that really irritate me but we have a very easy relationship where we talk about our problems but these things that irritate me she has built into our relationship so I can’t really ask her to stop otherwise she starts freaking out that I don’t love her and it’s very draining and I don’t know if I want to deal with that for the rest of my life. I would like to commit to that because I enjoy what we have together and I like the memories and I would love the fact that the girl who took my virginity to be my high school sweetheart be the girl I get buried with and I would love to see that but I also believe that there is another girl that can make me laugh and make me equally or more happy, but can also make me feel appreciated like she does.
TLDR: i don’t know if i want to continue dating my girlfriend because im not happy but i don’t know if i want to leave because of how she treats me