I'm 26. I've never been on a date, nor have I ever heard "I love you."
I'm pursuing a master's degree, have a good career, I'm fit, I play sports, and I speak 4 languages. I moved countries twice alone. I travel. I have a social circle of classmates from my master's program, so I'm not 100% isolated.
But this path is incredibly lonely. I tried to find someone several times when there was a chance, but timing was always a problem. I tried the apps in 2 different countries, and it's not working.
I romanticized being single. I go out and enjoy my life, so all those things about living your life and enjoying it before finding someone—I've done them.
Literally, I have done it all: focused on career, tried new hobbies, traveled, etc. Nothing of that path of solo life is remaining. Just the emptiness.
And I feel I can't control it. There isn't even a chance to take; it's mostly luck.
In my program, there are only 4 girls; they are taken. Meetup groups always have a bad male-to-female ratio and usually not people in their 20s.
I'm stuck between being deprived and lonely, which eats at me, with no idea what to do to change it.
When I see people jump from one relationship to another, it's always amazing how people like me can't even find people to date or ask out.
Sometimes circumstances are tough, and you really can't change them.
I'm not just venting, but I really don't know what to do. And with that longing and desire to share my life with someone, it's really hard to wait, let it happen, or even go through all these slow processes.
Time alone is killing my capacity to share my life with someone, even if my life is great and has a lot of positive aspects.