Im 21M and I got out of my 2 and a half year relationship back in March. Realistically it has been my only real and longest relationship where I thought I was going to marry her (19F) but obviously she had other plans. I also know March was like 9 months ago and I should be moving on but I can't.
Now for some context, I've had sex with multiple other women since then but I can't seem to get over her. I also find myself looking back on the relationship and how much love I put forth too her that I don't think I can do again because of the outcome and how I felt after the relationship was over. It's like I'm almost scared of loving someone again as much as I loved her. I've always been the type of guy to be nice and wear my heart on my sleeve essentially, so it lowkey hurts even more knowing I gave the relationship my all and it still didn't work out. I also know I'm not ready for a relationship yet but I also feel like I need one to be grounded for my own sake, if that makes any sense? Anything helps, thank you!
TL;DR: I don't think I could or can ever put myself in another relationship or love someone as much as I did my ex.