I’ve been talking to this guy for a month, and we’ve gotten pretty close in that time, despite the distance making it so we can’t meet in person. I’m crushing fairly hard, to be honest, and he seems to like me, too, to some extent (he’s expressed appreciation for me and has named things he likes about me, after I did it first but once unprompted as well, he just hasn’t been flirtatious enough for me to pick up on it. At a minimum, he cares about me as a person, and really enjoys my company). We’re also approaching this in a “friends first” way, which I really like. I have some really significant mental disorders, so the slow and consistent pace is helping me feel more secure. Right now I’m a bit unstable for reasons unrelated to him, as well, which makes me value that consistency even more.
The issue is, with all of those things considered, if either one of us chooses to walk away at this point, I’ve gotten attached enough that it’s gonna hurt like hell. Add in the fact I was getting dating fatigue before meeting him, anyway, and it will have to be break time 🫠 I’ve already deleted one of my dating apps, and on the one we connected on originally, I unmatched from everyone but him (even though we don’t talk there anymore) and paused it so I won’t get any new likes or matches. I’d delete it, too, but if he’s still using it, I don’t want him to think I’ve unmatched.
I will say, I’m excited to eventually leave “crushing” territory. It’s the most difficult phase for me 😅 even if I’d be leaving it because one of us dips out, at least it would be over. But obviously I’d rather it go in the other direction lol
I’m sorry if this was difficult to follow, hopefully it’s coherent enough. My brain is a fog