Hi everyone M26 here and I have an issue here. I am obsessed with thinking about another woman who is unavailable. She has a boyfriend and I don’t even know if she likes me. I don’t even know her really in the first place. I got to know her on instagram where I once stumbled upon her account and her pictures and stories just made me like her and want to be with her. She is like a friend of a friend or a friend. I have never seen her, never spoken to her irl whatsoever. Still I can’t stop thinking about her.
Now for almost a year I am constantly in this state of waiting for her to break up with her boyfriend for me to make a move. And hope what if she broke up? When I feel sad during the day or when she comes up in my mind I look at one of her photos and daydream about her. Or when I see a story of her I feel this adrenaline rush in my body and after that I quickly feel sad again. When I try to get a conversation going I comment on her insta story and got a reply back within 10 min. Now I send back another text and she left it unread for more then a week now.
I have no idea how to get over this again. I think it’s because I want to be loved myself too. I never had a girlfriend my entire life. On the other side I tried deleting social media to not be able to look at her instagram which is my only way to see her, but it didn’t help either. I am stuck literally and I am driving crazy. I feel like she is a special person, cute, friendly. I have a deep anxiety of never meeting anyone and being alone forever. Or that there wil not be anyone who will ever like me.