21f
i’ve never been in a true relationship before. i’ve only been in talking stages, and most of them i didn’t end up having feelings for, so it wasn’t worth it or right to move forward and lead them on. i’m also still figuring out my sexuality, but i’m scared to say anything. 99% of my friends and peers have already lost their v cards, and many of them were younger than me when they lost it. i just feel so behind. it doesn’t help that i’ve had a lot of traumatic and bad experiences with men and them not treating me nicely and violating my boundaries. i feel like it’s really had a toll on me and i have anxiety anytime a guy gets intimate with me. can anyone else relate? is this a deal breaker for most?