(Apologies if this not the right sub, please recommend me a more fitting one if this is thr case and sorry if the text is a little chaotic)
Hello, I (19M) got broken up with by boyfriend (21M). We had a kind of rocky relationship ehich lasted for a year, however despite this i reallly fell for the man. Now im experiencing such a heart break that every day i burst out in spouts of crying, frustration, and panic attacks. He was the only stable person in my life and i really tried my best to try to make him happy.
He was the main source of happyness for me and now all thats left is an endless cold void. Every time i see his account or anything that reminds me of him it breaks my heart all over again. I dont know how to let go. How could i ever get over him? He was so sweet, charming, funny, unique and so so cute. I dont know what to do. I cry every single day. I really dont want these feelings to last because i cant trust myself not to do anything stupid.
Im wayyy too scared to do things alone and nobody really wants to help me to actually get help.
I cant reallt think of any specifics at the moment on my own because of my really terrible memory. I am not mentally well and i cant take care of myself on my own.
If theres any specifics i should clarify please ask. Thank you.