Hello, this is my first time posting here and I don't know if I'm doing this correctly. But I hope my story can be read perfectly.\
This whole story is in WhatsApp unless told otherwise.
I'm a male. I'm autistic and because of that I'm not good at reading people.\
So in July this year, I got a girlfriend. She chased me first since January and I fell for her on April. It was really fun and I was really happy.
In our relationship, I was the listener and she was the one who talks all the time. She would tell me stories about her life (we rarely meet) and I would listen.\
She would tell me her problems with other people and I would listen and give some advices.\
I'm not the kind of person to talk a lot about myself, but I pushed myself to do it, even though rarely, so that I make her feel that she's important to me.
Now around a week ago, she suddenly stops talking. I feel something's not right because she would always tell me something, even though it's not important.\
I asked her why she's being different that day, she said it's nothing. It's also near her period (yes, I have a track of when she's gonna have her period and it's pretty accurate) so probably just some Premenstrual Syndrome (PMS).\
So I didn't think it was a big deal and I talk her like I usually do around her period (careful, staying away from anything that might upset her and try to lift her mood).
She didn't respond much, but it's normal around that time so I brushed it off.
The next day she's still behaving the same.\
I tried to ask what's wrong and she said that it's nothing.\
This is still pretty normal because it happens every month and usually last for 2 days.\
So I talk like before and brushed it off as PMS.
The third day, she still behaves the same.\
I'm really worried now, because it usually doesn't last this long.\
I asked "Are you really fine?", she replied "I'm fine".\
I told her "If you have any problems, you can tell me. If you have any problem with me, please tell me", "I will" she replied.\
The reason I asked her if she has any problem with me is because I'm not good at understanding others. Maybe what I think is normal, she think as a problem. I don't want to make her uncomfortable, so that's why I asked.\
I already told her this since the beginning of our relationship, she knows that I'm not good at understanding or communicating with people.
I tried to lift her mood by asking how her day was, how she's feeling and telling a little story about myself.\
She replied with some dry texts:\
"ok", "yea", "oooo", "sure".\
Well I'll admit, I do these dry text most of the times.\
But she never complained, so I didn't know. Maybe she liked my texting style, maybe not, I don't know.
Day 4\
Her behaviour is still the same. I'm really, really worried about this relationship now.\
It's only been 5 months and I don't know what's wrong with her.\
On this day, we have plans to watch a movie together, FNAF 2 to be exact. I know that she's easily startled by jumpscares, so I held her hand. But she didn't held me back.\
She just left me holding her while she's watching without any response.\
I tried to ask "Do you have any problems with me?", her answer still remains "It's fine".\
I know there's something wrong, but I can't prove it and I don't know what it is.
That date was awkward and she didn't even tell me goodbye before she leaves.
Now onto day 5\
She's still the same, I don't know what to do anymore. I tried to ask her best friend but she says that she don't know what's wrong with her.\
Then I got an information from her other best friend.\
Let's call the first best friend Jessica and the second as Florence (this is not their real name).\
So apparently, Jessica and my partner was talking about me.\
In WhatsApp there's this feature called "channels" for sharing purposes. My GF has one but I don't follow it to preserve the sense of privacy.\
Florence however, is one of the followers there.\
My GF posts a screenshot of her chat with Jessica, this is basically what's the screenshot.
Jessica:\
Asshole\
If I see him, I will punch his face\
How come he doesn't chase you\
You're so cute and beautiful\
He's just good at math, he have no heart\
He doesn't deserve you.
The caption of the photo is as follows:\
"I'm laughing so much, even though I'm sad but she entertained me"
What the hell???\
What did I do???
I asked Florence to give me some other chat if there's any.\
She gave me a screenshot of some posts.
These are my GF's words:\
Is he not interested in me anymore?\
It feels like I'm the only one interested\
Why is he asking me so much if I'm fine\
Like he cares\
I want a man that's like (a local TV character that's basically a perfect man)\
Why do I always put the work while he does not?
Using all of these informations. I asked her one more time.\
"Do you have a problem with me?", "I'm fine".\
I snapped. I'm done, I know that she's not fine, I know that she's been talking behind me.\
She's doesn't want me to know what's wrong with me yet I still need to find it out????\
What the hell am I supposed to do there?
So then I gave her an ultimatum. "If you have a problem with me, tell me now. I don't want to break apart this relationship, but if you keep doing this. Then we will break up."\
She didn't respond.
Final day\
I'm tired of waiting, I'm tired of trying to fix everything.\
I'm also physically tired because I just got home from an event.\
It's been a day and she still hasn't respond to my question.\
As my ultimatum says, I broke up with her.
And then she says this:\
"I was only copying how you talk to me, sorry if you feel like I didn't care for you this week. Thank you."
I responded:\
"If that is the case then let me ask you something, did you tell Jessica about your problem before yesterday?"\
"No, I told her yesterday"\
"Liar."
Now she's basically lying to me. My heart hurts, my head hurts. I feel betrayed.
And then she gave me some "advices":\
"If you get a new girl, you need to put some effort to her. Don't make her feel like she's the only one excited, the only one doing all the work and you're just lazy.\
Also, tell some stories. Your girl also want to hear your stories. Peace."
I was so mad and confused at this time that I responded with this:\
"What do you mean you're the only one excited? I'm sorry that you feel that way, but why?\
Every time you tell me stories, I will respond, I will hear you, even though when I'm tired. Because I loved you, I want you to be heard.\
Your voice notes, even though I don't want to hear anything, I still listened. Because I loved you.\
I frequently asked to meet you, I showed interests in you. And you tell me I'm not interested? You don't feel It's enough?
Maybe I rarely tell stories, I'm sorry. I don't really tell stories, but I tried.\
Because I want you to know that you're important to me, I tell you my stories even though I don't like it.
And EVERYTIME there's a problem between us, I always asked you.\
The reason I asked you is because I want to know what makes you uncomfortable, what I can fix, what you can fix, and what can we do to make us better.\
You know I'm not good at understanding the problems.
But you said "I'm fine" EVERYTIME. I opened the door and you slammed it on my face everytime.\
I'm done, best of luck but you are not for me."
And that's the end of our chat. We haven't chat for 2 days now.
Florence then ask me if I'm still with my ex. I said no. And then she sent me some screenshots again.\
It's my ex and Jessica again.
Jessica:\
Can you tell him to not be an asshole?\
I don't want my beautiful friend here be hurt.
The caption:\
"I love her so much, thank God she's by my side"
And then some other screenshots of her own words from her channel:\
It hurts so much\
I loved him\
I can't believe there's a man that doesn't want to be in the wrong\
If you're the one, then your man will always chase you. No matter how long.
The hell????\
I don't understand this anymore. I tried to understand her for 5 days.\
Maybe it's not a long time but she can at least tell me something. Something I did wrong.
The reason why my title is like that, is because 3 of her best friends agree with her.\
They call me an asshole.\
The only friend that understand my POV is Florence, which is a mutual.
I'm not friends with my ex anymore, I feel like she's a ticking time bomb if I continue.\
But her reasoning makes me wonder.\
She knows I'm autistic and not good with people.\
I know that I'm not good at understanding people. I'm not good at showing people affection.\
But I also knows that, I've given my best.\
I pushed myself out of my comfort zone to make her feel loved. Yet this is what I get.
Maybe I'm not that good and I'm not worthy of a relationship, but maybe it's just her that have a problem.\
I don't know, so please give me some advice and an answer for my question.\
You don't need to sugarcoat your advices, more blunt ones will work better.