I think I hate my brother
Another holiday season in the books where my brother has completely turned it on its head. After years of having to pander to his emotions and walk on eggshells around him anytime he’s around. After years of resentment, manipulation, and overall shitty character I am DONE.
My brother and I have never been close, he’s always resented me for “being the favorite” and has a me against everyone else in the family kind of mentality. I cannot tell you how many times as a kid (he’s 8 years older than me btw) that he’s either stolen from our mom, treated me like shit, and brought nothing but havoc and destruction into MY life let alone the lives of others.
He weaponizes his sexuality and identity against us always saying “you hate me because I’m _______”
He is transitioning from F to M and recently went through a double mastectomy. We have been nothing but supportive of his decision, referring to him with the right pronouns, using his new name, not asking questions or passing any judgment whatsoever. So what text does my mother wake up to this morning after checking in how he’s doing after his surgery? “You and ******** wish I was dead” L O L…. My brother came out to me when I was 8 years old (when she was female) as lesbian and I told her whatever the case was she’s my sister (at the time) and I wouldn’t care… but what did I always here growing up?
Me: “I want my PlayStation back you’ve been playing it all day”
Him: “oh you don’t want me playing it cus I’m gay”
The above is just one of many examples of bullshit I’ve gotten from him.
I can understand him not wanting to be around people that knew him as a female before, and I can understand him not wanting to be around family either.. but just say that…
He feels so strongly about family and whatnot, but he happily accepts new cars from our mother, doesn’t have an issue reaching out for rent money, money for groceries, money to pay his bills, etc…
I’m sorry if I’m all over the place as I write this, but I’m just looking for some outside opinions here. AITA for feeling this way?