It's so frustrating when people act dry, dull, uninterested, bored and avoidant with you but then you see them light up, smiling and laughing with others. Before people say they're reflecting my energy, no matter how hard I try to act interested/enthusiastic it's just not reciprocated and it probably comes off as desperate. I never give dry responses, I share my opinion and I ask for theirs too. When i ask them questions of themselves they don’t care enough to give good responses. There's also nothing to talk about because my life and my personality aren't interesting.
I struggle to connect or be close with people and after a couple of weeks it’s like they hit a plateau/wall and they realize I’m boring, offputting and lack a personality. You can tell they slowly distance themselves bc of the awkward silent moments and lack of connection. As soon as they're released from the barring shackles of sitting next to me they avoid acknowledging my presence anywhere else.