3 months ago, I (M21) met a girl (F20) at work, I saw she was a new worker and introduced myself like I did everyone else, found out she’s a student just like me and that we have a lot of common interests. About two weeks later she gives me her phone number out of nowhere, I didn’t know what initiated it but it made me happy. I never texted her or called her cuz I didn’t want to be a bother, she said we should hangout sometime but I was always too nervous to ask. About 3 weeks later she calls me out of nowhere and asks if I want to accompany her at the gym since she doesn’t like going alone, and I said sure. She had a “boyfriend” at this time, but by the way she talks about him it’s like they weren’t even dating. She said how they never hung out and he would always ignore her for his friends. I chalked it up to being that he’s a Chinese student and doesn’t know how dating in America works. He also apparently was cheating on her and lied to her about not having sex before. She broke up with him pretty quickly, after which he started showing up around her a lot more often, which naturally made her feel uncomfortable, he was kind of a stalker. Anyways, two weeks later around the beginning of November, it’s like she suddenly changed. She started texting me every day coming up with reasons to hangout, like getting food and going to the gym. This made me really happy, I’ve never met a girl who wanted to hang out with me every day. Whenever I would mention a place I’ve never been or something I’ve never seen, she said we should go see it together. We are both Korean language students, she said I should go study abroad with her next year. She wanted me to schedule my next semesters classes at the same time as hers so that we would have the same free time. She said I should try to change my work schedule around so I can join her at church on Sundays. She made a YouTube channel for us that she wants to upload gaming videos to. And most recently, we’ve been going to the library every day to study and do homework, though we usually end up getting sidetracked and looking at our phones or watching something. Two weeks ago, right before Thanksgiving break, I expressed my feelings to her and said how I would like to date her sometime, to which she said that she feels it’s a bit to soon and that she wants to focus more on school and her relationship with Jesus. After thanksgiving break though I feel like she became more clingy. That was when we started hanging out at the library every night, and we would stay there really long times, usually about 6 hours and we’d be there til 3am. The things she does to me that makes me feel like she likes me are, she touches me all the time, she likes tickling the most cuz I make funny noises, at first she would only tickle my stomach and sides, but one day she started going for my legs, tickling my thighs and stuff. Then she started letting me put my arm around her and she would lean her body against me. We stayed like that for about a week, then yesterday we pretty much started full on cuddling. She laid completely on my lap, she put my arm on her, and I just held her like that for hours and hours. She said my lap is very comfortable, like a soft warm pillow. She even slept on me for a bit. At this point, my feelings for her are going crazy, I’m falling more and more in love with her every day, and so what I’m nervous and confused about now is why she doesn’t want to date. Ever since we started getting closer and closer physically after thanksgiving break, I have been itching like crazy to ask her out again. I mean come on, what girl who is just a friend, makes plans with you every day, says she wants to study abroad with you, makes a YouTube channel with you, hangs out with you at the library multiple nights in a row until 3am, gets food with you all the time, offers to buy you things when she doesn’t have a lot of money, lets you casually touch her and give her hugs, we haven’t kissed or anything but our faces touched when cuddling, I wanted to kiss her so bad but fought the urge. Surely she doesn’t treat all her guy friends like this right? I have to be a special exception right? I’m so confused, I’m afraid she wants me to make a move again, but I’m scared to when she said she wants to focus on school and her relationship with Jesus. I don’t want to ask again if she doesn’t feel ready yet. I just don’t know what to do. My feelings for her are getting unbearably strong and only increasing every day, I just can’t figure out why she wants to do all these girlfriend like things with me but not be my girlfriend. I would like if I could get female input on this, preferably from someone who’s Christian like she is.