Me 'M20' and my partner 'F22' been together for 3 years, 3 years that we’ve had these up and downs a lot of beautiful moments but like every relationship some down ones.
Couple months ago she said ive been lacking in giving her some kind of love or attention, so she tried breaking up with me saying she needed space and time to know what to do and requested a "break", i didnt wanted to and told her ill work on what needs to be worked on.
She agreed and were still telling me we were together as she was going out to clubs going to see this guy that they had a past with each other, they were acting like a couple for about a month then they stopped talking and she said how sorry she was and all she wanted was me Iaccepted her apology and believed her.
Then her friend went through a divorce so she wanted to help her out "change her mind" and be there for her which i had no problem with, she was lying to me of places they were going, of people they were seeing.
They went to see guys multiple times and she kissed multiple guys saying that she was "pretending" and it was just so her friend can get the other guy, ( which i found ridiculous), she kept on telling me how she loved me and she’ll stop she loves me, im the only one she will ever love this and that.
Because i love her and ive spend 3 years with her i want a believe her but i have 0 trust in her anymore she isnt really trying to build that trust back honnestly.
I dont know how to talk to her telling her i want a check her phone (because right now we are working our way back together, a fresh start) but i wont be able since i dont trust her and i dont have her passwords or social media accounts anymore.
I just want a know how would you guys have deal or would deal with this situation? Any advice is appreciated.
TL:DR! 3 years relationship went sideways after ive lacked a few emotional stuff, she went to look for it with someone else, came back to me telling me she wanted to be with me, then redid it couple weeks later using the excuse (she doing it to help her friend go through a divorce) need advice on what to do here thank you.