So this online stuff is completely new to me and I usually meet guys IRL. But this guy, I'll call Guts and I met via a game online. Initially he was very kind and very interested in spending time together cracking jokes and so forth, after a few days of playing he started calling me "m'lady" (I know some think this may be cringey) and being a total gentleman.
Then it progressed to discord where we would chat every single day calling me princess, beautiful, pretty.. He would so so romantic and sweet. Then it turned into nearly 8 hour calls every day. He would almost smother me with attention and affection but I welcomed it like an idiot because I've never been given so attention like this. We would just have so much fun, he would stream games he was playing in a discord call and we would talk for ages and bought me birthday gifts too back in May..
The thing is; he never showed me his profile picture and explained that he has facial or body dysmorphia. I know he isn't catfishing me and would show partial photos of his face..
For a long time he would define the type of relationship we had and after a few months I noticed he wouldn't talk with me as much after I pointed out he kinda love bombed me then left me bread crumbs after.. I asked for some space and immediately after that he declared he was in love with me.. he would write (and still does) the most beautiful poetry, he has an incredible ability to write.. he is intelligent in this regard.
About a month later he kept promising to spend more time with me gaming but wouldn't and would flake.. until I saw him play this game we met online though – with someone else for hours and it just sparked jealousy in me which I am ashamed of.. I told him how it upset me and he gave me silent treatment for 3 days.
After the three days everything completely changed. No more romantic words, no more calling as much, no more sending me music like he used to or funny videos.. and it felt like emotional whiplash.
Before the argument we were very sexual with each other and he still can be even now even though it feels like we're nothing more than friends.
I just feel so sad, and wishful that things would return to how they once were. I miss the way we would talk with each other.. and I feel embarrassed to say this but I still call him handsome and kinda flirt with him too and feel like an idiot because it's never reciprocated anymore.. Now he has been talking with some other girl via the same game which he invited me to play last night and I walked in on them having a kinda sexually charged flirty conversation she said: "you're speaking kinda horny to me" and He said: "you got a problem with that" it just felt awkward to walk in on that (in game)
I just don't know what to do now. I miss him </3