Hi friends
I put myself in an extremely embarrassing and humiliating situation the other day largely due to a series of horrible social skill decisions and procrastination.
The long version: I work at a university under a professor, and decided to audit a class. I had a final project presentation for this class. I had everybody in the world offering to help me on this project and I refused all of them because I didn't want to waste anybody's time and thought I could learn things myself. I ended up procrastinating and not being able to piece anything together in a short period of time. I didnt sleep for two days, my project that I was planning all this time went completely wrong. The professor that was hosting the presentations invited a bunch of people to hear us speak and everyone else's projects were so thoughtful exciting and put together. Come my turn, i made a complete fool of myself. My project was clearly half-assed already, and I was so delirious from sleep deprivation that I didnt even understand the point I was trying to make and the sentences I was saying. The worst part is, my boss/professor who had offered to help me on my project was in the audience, and my bad performance reflected on her too.
The short version: I hardcore flubbed a presentation in front of my boss whose help I rejected.
I've been killing myself over this for the past couple of days. Oh my god. I don't even know how to recover from this other than telling myself we're all on a rock floating in space and none of this matters in the grand scheme of the universe. I'd rather not have to resort to existentialism to be able to show my face at work on Monday TT.