Recently, as I've just turned 36, I've been pondering about my life choices so far and started thinking that I just don't know what I really want for myself.
I feel all my decisions are based on "peer pressure", be it friends, parents, social media or society in general. I see my friends earning big bucks, buying new cars. My dad having a cushy retirement. People attaining their dreams.
All while I don't know which hobbies I like, what brings me joy, etc. What is happiness actually?
Am I too ambitious? Will I ever be satisfied with what I have? Go for money and comfort or stay poor while still aiming for a dream that might never happen?
My mind is just filled with indecision, I don't trust myself.