Context, 20M was speaking to this girl for a little over 3 months…
Lots of rescheduling on her side, only ever got 2 dates but I stuck around like an idiot.
She brought up that she slept with a dude a week before the 2nd date on the date and then randomly in convo about a month after she said it was so worth it. (she told me after the 2nd date that she wasn't ready for a LTR yadda yadda yadda). So i decided like an idiot to stay just as friends. That's where she dropped the info about sleeping with the dude…
Fast forward a bit I go no contact with her because of the knowledge that "It was so worth it". I break no contact like an idiot 3 weeks later and just downright told her everything how I was feeling, how she did mean something to me yadda yadda yadda.
We organise a hangout and hangout about a week ago. Where I get told a day or two before the hangout randomly over text that she only sees me platonically. I leave it at that because I did still wanna see her just as a friend.
When we hangout, she drops stuff like "you blew your chances with me"… "I'm talking to this other dude"… "I did a mix of drugs and what not"… "I slept with the dude a 2nd time when she was high asf" (She didn't say when but it was after my 2nd date. In the next day or so from what I gathered)
Part of me still likes her for some stupid reason…
I just feel like the bad person for blocking and I legit don't know why. (she was my first ever date, I thought we clicked…) I waited over a month for the 2nd date with her after multiple reschedules just to find out she is sleeping and hooking up with dudes.
I have never been so stabbed in my life. But at the same time I'm not sad about it, this time round… Honestly just pissed.
Did I do the right thing for blocking and finally letting self respect kick in or did I downright stuff up and lose someone who might of turned around later down the track. I currently have no one to date, never been in an relationship and just wanting someone to hug.