TL;DR: I don’t feel the same overwhelming admiration for my current girlfriend that I once felt for my ex, and I’m not sure if that’s normal.

About a year and a half ago, I (24M) ended a 7-year relationship. We were together for most of my teenage and early adult life. We grew a lot, and eventually, we just grew apart.

Now I'm in a new relationship with an amazing woman (26F). We have more in common than I ever had with my ex, she treats me incredibly well, and we hardly ever fight.

But I feel like something is missing.

In my other relationship, I worshipped her, basically. I felt like I was her biggest fan, even with all the flaws in our relationship. She made me dizzy, I was bedazzled with her presence. I knew she wasn't the best person in the world, and I knew she had a lot of flaws, but I still felt like she was the best person in the world, someone to always look up to. With my current girlfriend, those intense feelings aren’t there. I see her as a wonderful partner and I really enjoy our time together, it's the best part of my day. But she feels like a regular person. Special to me, of course, but not “extraordinary” in that same way.

I know it's normal to become a little more apathetic as you get older and have more experiences. Maybe the reason things felt so magical before is because I was young and impressionable and everything was new. But I really thought that once I found a good, healthy relationship again, the “adoration” feeling would come back. I'm not disappointed or sad about our relationship, but it makes me feel like I'm doing something wrong.

Anyway, is this just how love feels as you get older, or is something wrong with me?


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