It’s really embarrassing but I have no voice. And I don’t mean physically, but psychologically. In all social instances, I’m super quiet and I hate that I’m like that. It’s so awkward and I die a little inside every time. I wish I could get along with people easily, but when it comes time to try, I lose this ability to speak up. Half the time I have no idea what to say, and when I might have something to say I struggle to get it out because internally I’m trying to word it as best as I can and editing it and it all takes too much time. I wouldn’t doubt it if I am just very dumb and slow. Even when I, say, want to leave a situation, I don’t know what or how to say it so I end up awkwardly standing around until I rudely disappear or absolutely fudge my words and leave feeling utterly shameful.
Any advice on how to practice or learn social skills would be greatly appreciated. I need to work on this.