Im very discouraged right now. Part of me knows that dating for me might not be a good idea at the moment. Im not making good money consistently and my self esteem isn't the greatest, but I really miss being in a relationship and feeling wanted by someone. It's been two years since my last relationship and I feel unattractive and undesirable. I know the unattractive part isn't true because my ex used to say the women at her job would talk about me until she started flirting with me and my freinds act like women should be throwing themselves at me but I don't see that or FEEl that way. I think part of that is the apps, but part of it is I've only had 2 very meh dates in the past two years. This sub though an awsome outlet and I feel good helping others is also a bit of a downer as I constantly see posts about how I have to approach more and even though I try to its insanely difficult to do so through my social anxiety and it ussualy results in nothing more than a bit of chit chat.
It's just so discouraging. Im trying to keep my head up like my person is out there but as of late its been really hard to do so.