I try and put myself out there. I’m social settings I’m comfortable with introducing myself and joining conversations, in group conversations I help people feel included because I know from experience that others don’t do this.
However, I have the frequent socially awkward moment. I feel like I come across and look like a kid who is to positive and smilely.
When I was younger I had been described as the following which I didn’t believe at the time but seriously have me questioning myself now as an adult
“Everything about you is awkward” I have been told
“You are the most socially awkward person I know”
“He is confident and awkward is weird”
So it seems these people were pretty much right. To make things work I don’t really have anything going for myself looks wise as I am extremely mediocre in that aspect.
I do public speaking representing my company, internal presentations and i socialise through my sport. But I can’t help but feel that I will always be socially awkward as I’m just a disappointing person overall / all round loser. I don’t think being awkward is bad but it just means I’m not achieving what I need to achieve