ive been super depressed about it lately and ineed somebody totalk to
im15 and dont have any irl friends
ihave alot of online buddies and people id consider friends, we talk everyday, we draw together write stories together tell each other about our day i talk for hours on end with these people, im super sociable online i know exactly what to say but never irl
its not that i ignore conversations or something its that nobody has conversations with me really, nobody dislikes me either as far as im aware everybodys just overly neutral
ive been in this class for 2 years now
id feel like a giant asshole if i just got involved in other peoples conversations and going up to someone and talking to them also makes me feel like an asshole bcz what says they want to talk with me of all people.
ik theres people my age who never had friends in school but turned out very sociable outside of it when they found there community, maybe for me its also bcz nobody in my class shares my intrests in my old school i atleast had 2 friends id spend time with bcz we had the same interests but here ifind it hard to relate to anyone
i would be fine with not having friends but i feel like a bad person for not having irl friends. i feel like it makes me way less of a person that id rather talk with many people online than irl, it makes me feel like an out of touch bad person. im okay with not having irl friends but i feel like everybody else would see me as a degenerate for it