Yes, this post may come off as weird, or unexpected, but yeah. I'm very good socially, I can talk to anyon and everyone easily, people of all ages, and genders approach me, like talking to me, and you would be asking, that's a good thing right?
NO. It's not, it's too much energy that I have to give out to others, I can avoid them, sometimes I wish being left alone, being quite, without having to say a single word. I can try my best to hint I'm not interested without coming off as rude, but it just keep on happening. Another part of this, is I can communicate and understand the person infront of me just fine, I can be relevant to them. But never like them, or who they are, that's the most annoying part, is me understanding them and not liking who they are. I admit I have very high standard, yet very little specific traits I look for in people whom I like, that unfortunately I can't find in most people. For example, myself I'm very self aware, of my self, of others, of the situation I'm in etc.. the people I like have this trait too, which a lot of other people don't have unfortunately and it become very annoying dealing with them.
Another part, I have many "friends", "colleagues", and a lot of people whom I'm surrounded with, who loves me, yet I feel like I'm very distant, no one understands me, I feel alone while I'm surrounded by everyone. I hope this makes sense and some other people relate to this too.
I would love to get some advices from other people who went through similar situation like this, thanks.