Hey everyone, hope everyone is alright. A lot of you have seen my posts about my divorce and how it went down. I reached out to her Monday and even though it was unfruitful I did get insight on my divorce. She said she has 100s of text messages saying how much I hate her and how I want to bring people over etc etc. whether it’s true or not I don’t know. I don’t remember telling anyone this and if I did, then it had to be in a dumb/jokingly tone as our house is covered in cameras and some I can’t even control. She said I cheated on her and I just well I didn’t. She has always had my location and even my car location. Controlled the bank accounts etc. Anyways, is it weird that after all of this she’s still my heart? The life I sacrificed for her, for us. I gave her everything and anything at anytime. New house new car you name it. Last year I gave her pearls because she never had real ones. What person would do all of this and cheat on you? I’m a disabled veteran and 31 and she’s 30. I feel like I am lost as sea and my best friend just got up and left me. My closest friends said that for past few months they have seen how she was treating me. Terrible angry but I chalked it up as work stress for her. She truly is my world, I know a lot of people are saying she could have been cheating but I can’t envision that. I just need advice on how to process this I guess. I was kicked out of our house and living at my parents house. Our rentals are all leased or else I’d stay there. It’s just I’m reading all of our old text messages and she’s the bubbly happy wife. Then bang, out of no where divorce papers,kicked out of house. All her friends, our friends attacking me. Humiliation to the max. Why after all of that I still have strong love for her? I should feel hatred anger but I just idk love her. Sorry rant over