So to start this off I’m 21f and this is my first boyfriend 23m. Ive been a virgin my whole life up until dating him. I do like everything about him, I can’t help but feel some sort of cute aggression every time im around him and he enjoys the attention.
My first time having sex with him was ok I guess. I was a virgin so it hurt and wasn’t exactly fun or pleasurable. It was slow and gentle which I soon realised wasn’t my thing. I enjoy being a little rough and he explained that he does too but didn’t know if I’d be ok with it. Sex got way more pleasurable and fun to the point that we go on for about 10 mins mainly because one orgasm is nice but not enough for me. I think it’s because I’ve been a virgin for so long and I’ve always flicked the bean to my imagination sometimes multiple times a day. So when we have sex, I enjoy us both finishing multiple times. When his rough,
his so hot and I get so much in my feelings about it,don’t know how to explain it. It’s like I want to eat him in a way and I enjoy the way he looks and sounds when he finishes.
Lately however his made a couple of comments about how he wants to be more slow and gentle and I guess more vanilla. He confessed that he didn’t like how “eager” and “rough” I was during sex. I enjoy being rough housed and I guess enjoy making him finish more than me finishing. I was fine with it however I couldn’t help but notice how I wasn’t my usual wet self. He came and I just couldn’t. He noticed too and got kinda upset about it. We tried again and I really did try but I just couldn’t get turned on. I told him to continue but he said he couldn’t get past it and it felt wrong to continue. I gave him a bj for the night and we went to bed.
I felt bad the whole morning while he was at work but I don’t know what to do to change it. I can’t help that slow sex doesn’t turn me on. It’s boring to me and awkward. I’m really trying to enjoy it for him but I just can’t. Our usual routine is more exiting to me. It’s more like hate sex in a way and I guess his not really that type of guy. His more gentle and loving which is fine with me but it just doesn’t turn me on. I feel kinda disgusting and slutty thinking about how he describe me as too eager and I do want to talk more about this whole thing with him but I’m embarrassed.