I see a therapist and I let them know about this, and they said I could have an emotional disconnect from my partner.
I'm a SAHM, my partner is usually very stressed from work, and he wants to game to unwind after work. He asks for sex quite often at night before we go to bed, and more often than not, I'll agree even when I'm tired from all day.
But I feel like I'm failing him/lying to him, because I do want the sex. But I don't feel his body the same way I used to. I don't feel the brush of his skin against mine. The sound of his breath no longer gives me chills that made me excited, y'know?
I love him so much, and I just feel like I'd disappoint him if I tell him this.
The therapist I'm seeing suggested that maybe I should increase my touch? Maybe a hug or a cuddle more every day could help with this feeling.
If I could describe this…it's like a numbness, like I feel skin to skin contact, but I don't feel like….how do I describe an image in my brain…into words. the small hairs on your arms stand up, you're both sweating and you feel your warmth like all emotions of that moment are felt through our skin. You want to hold so close you nearly fuse to this person. But all I feel is, cold skin on skin..there's no intensity.
Any advice, would be great right now.
Also, edit: this is a throwaway account. My partner uses reddit…a lot. So i didn't want him finding out this way.