He dropped some hints that he would want to try pegging. He said he'd used a toy in his ass in the past and said it feels great so I was down to try to make him feel good.
I'm pretty submissive and he usually is the dominant one in sex. So it was interesting to try and the first few times were pretty gentle and he didn't make much noise. But he would jerk himself off and he said it felt really good.
Then he started to get more comfortable I guess? And the way he behaves when we do it is starting to sort of confuse my emotions… Initially he seemed maybe embarrassed to be vulnerable like that with me but last few times he seems to be leaning into getting fucked. Pretty loud moaning, arching his back when we do doggy and asking me to thrust harder.
I was a little taken aback because I've never seen him like that and I'm used to being the one getting railed. But I could look past it until last time when he ended up cumming handsfree? Didn't even know that could happen but it was very intense. He was shaking and moaning and then went silent and his face looked like he was constipated? Idk how else to describe it ðŸ˜. Like an O face but a step above. And then he just lay there silent, drenched in sweat and red face. He said it felt incredible but I can't get the image out of my mind.
I feel terrible because I don't want to deny him his sexual desires but I don't think I'm attracted to someone being this submissive. Also I'm scared I'm a little jealous because whenever we have vaginal sex I never cum. He always finishes me before or after and I was totally fine with this. But now that I've seen him cum from sex I'm sort of sad that I don't get to experience that. It looks really intense for him.
I'm scared that pegging will become a bigger part of our sex life as he is more frequently requesting it.
Is this a genie that can be put back in the bottle? Can anyone suggest ways to make pegging less dominant/submissive? I'm not sure if he would enjoy that but I want to try to make it work.