So, my husband is currently in college, working towards a degree that will hopefully take us from poverty, to a somewhat comfortable life. Both of us have been desperately looking for work for several months. I, especially, have been trying to find work because I dont want him to attempt to do college and a full time job, and the poor guy to be overworked.
Unfortunately, I havent had any luck at all. All i get is the "we decided to go with another candidate" email, which has made my mental health drop substantially. However, by some miracle, HE got hired for a really good job. The problem is, the hours are going to merge with his school hours, and that just wont work. Now, he has to make the choice of, if they cant switch him to a different schedule for his school, he will have to quit for now. Which makes me feel guilty and horrible, because he was really enjoying his classes, and getting the degree would set him up and get him paid more.
And no, since its been so long since hes been able to find work, he doesnt have the luxury or privilege to simply turn down the job and try to find something that works better with his schedule. We are food bank poor, over here.
I feel bad, because if I had gotten a job instead, he could have just focused on his school and not had to worry about it. Now he has to make the decision of quitting college for an unforeseen amount of time, or if he does somehow manage to switch his hours, hes going to be doing nothing but working/doing classes 24/7.
On the one hand, Im happy he got the job because i am not exaggerating when I say we are DROWNING. We are literally at a point where we can either buy toilet paper or milk. Not both. But i still feel like i suck, because no one is hiring me, no one is giving me a chance.
Anyway, just needed to vent a little bit. Thanks for reading.