Long story short, I had an intense asthma attack days ago i literally saw death in my own eyes i called him at 2 am so he can drive me to the emergency (we don’t live together) he came late said he didn’t think it was serious he arrived I was laying in the floor fighting for my life. He took me to the hospital and im okay now. Fast forward today, I have cleaned the house even though im still not really feeling good but I did my best. He was feeding my daughter in the living room i calmly asked him to please feed her in the kitchen as im too tired to clean any mess he of course refused he said my daughter will have a tantrum now and wont eat if we moved her to the kitchen I insisted that its better to eat in the kitchen in her high chair … he said you only want to break my words you’re stubborn you were raised in a clean freak home I said well I love my house to be clean and tidy just as how much you like your car to be clean and shiny. Anyway he told me he prays that i die and he wishes that i died 2 days ago while having asthma attack I was unbelievably shocked! I looked straight into his eyes in disbelief with tears in my eyes and he kept saying the same thing over and over again.. i shouted at him to get the fuck out of my room but my bad my daughter got scared and started crying (i felt bad for shouting) but i was hurt. What i went through 2 days ago caused me a trauma im still scared till this day that it will happen again to me and ill die alone at home and the last thing i wanted to hear was this!! Im heartbroken I can’t stop crying