So, my girlfriend and I have agreed to meeting close to my birthday^ she plans on renting a hotel room for a week to visit me :> and I want us to experience a little bit of intimacy. However, I've tried inserting things inside me before but, I've never been able to fully put them in? for example, I have a 4 inch bullet vibrator and it's never gone at least half way inside me. Whenever I'm confident and try to push it in further, it feels like I'm pressing it against a wall, and when I apply more pressure it feels like something is going to tear. Could I be inserting it in wrong? is this something that could be fixable with more practice?
The only reason why I haven't push past the tearing feeling is because I'm worried I'll severely injure myself somehow. I've never tried anything but external stimulation, because internal I've been too scared to do. But it looks like it feels really good and I want my girlfriend and I to have a good sexual experience whenever we try. I don't want to attempt and not be able to take her yk? I want it to go smoothly.