I love my wife. I think she is sexy and beautiful. Her ass makes me go crazy. I can’t keep my hands off her.
But the honest truth is that I also struggle with porn. Haven’t watched it in over a month now but it’s a struggle.
And that makes me wonder how genuine is my desire for my wife? I see many say that if you watch porn then the desire for your wife isn’t special anymore. And that makes me wonder, if I don’t watch porn but can still be turned on by someone else then how genuine is my desire for my wife?
Like yesterday I saw a music video which I realized was basically soft porn. Honestly it was trashy but I can’t lie that it got a sexual reaction of me. I turned it off because it didn’t feel right.
And that made me wonder. I am a lustful man. I don’t stare or look at women IRL but if I see anything sexual on the screen I am drawn to it.
How can then my desire for my wife be genuine? Or is some peoples sexual desire more of a spectrum or something where I can like many things but it’s all about what I decide to focus on?
Uncomfortable questions to ask.