I was a chronic cheater. Before and during marriage. My marriage was “ruined” by my ex-wife finding out about the affair(s) if that’s what you want to call them. The affairs were never based in love, just lust, hormones , my own intimacy issues and bad decisions. Losing my wife was incredibly hard on me and during the time, I’d say I lost the love of my life.
In hindsight now, five years later and with kids (affair kids), I have had to move on with my life but am wondering if I ever loved my ex-wife. Looking for anyone else in a similar situation.
Did you really love her? Or were you just torturing her? Did you just like the way she loved you?
To lie to her like I did, and not care about her feelings, I wonder if I truly loved her.