Welll, I have a 15 month old, and I’m currently due in Feb. with our second baby. I’m honestly in complete disbelief that my husband would do something like this, especially because he always promised he never would. He would even brag and say that if anything ever happened, he would leave me before cheating but that turned out not to be true.
This morning, something didn’t feel right. He was sweet last night, but then he woke up acting cold (through messages bc he’s currently active out of state) and when I just asked who he had Zelled money to, he told me, “I don’t want to be with you bc you’re always on me and always thinking I’m doing something but I’m not etc etc” That made me feel like something wasn’t adding up bc why so heartless now? We were doing just great. Also just like to say he would always tell me this while upset with me (I know red flag)
Out of curiosity, i went on his Instagram and I clicked on a girl’s Instagram profile that he had followed. They been following each other on and off and she notice I saw her story so she ended up messaging me aggressively, and I replied that I was only wondering who my husband was following. She told me she didn’t know any married man, so I gave her his name and that’s when she told me everything.
She sent screenshots of their conversations from the past two years, on and off. He openly admitted he loved her and always thinking of her. He wished her happy birthday, told her he wanted to sleep with her, and even told her he was getting off to her pictures and videos. He also told her he was talking to “another girl,” that wasn’t me.
He used to make me feel crazy for having intuition, but now everything makes sense.
So now I’m asking myself…
How do I forgive and move on?
What are the steps to heal?
Do I even forgive this?
What would life be like as a single parent, or if I were to stay?
And please I’m not looking for backlash because I never would’ve thought he would do anything like that
Edit: I would also like to add that he disappeared and never responded to my messages after I showed him the evidence of his cheating. He cowardly chose to disappear on me.
Update: I will be packing all his stuff today so that when he comes back from the army he can leave me in peace like I deserved, I’m just still in shock