Feeling worthless as a stay at home wife

Hello everyone,

I recently got married in July and moved countries. I do have a bachelors degree but at the moment, I can’t use it since I’m not a resident of the country I live in and I’m not legally authorized to work here yet. I’m having some finance issues as well, so I can’t transfer my degree at the moment either / look for jobs.

I was working remotely online for a while, but I quit because of the toxic work environment and some other issues.

Right now, I have no choice, but to be a stay at home wife. I’m in charge of cooking, cleaning, and maintaining the home. (I don’t have kids).
It’s such an honor to be able to do this, but I’ve been dealing with some struggles of feeling lazy and feeling like I’m not doing as much as my husband. He’s out there working 40 hours a week, busting his butt to try and provide for us but I feel like compared to him I’m not trying as hard. My mind starts comparing how much we both are doing and I start to feel low and disgusted in myself for just staying at home bc I feel like he’s doing so much more. I mean providing is already hard as it is. I feel like housework isn’t anything special. I feel like I’m not contributing anything to our marriage and I feel like I’m not doing anything for us.

When I was working remotely, I was doing that and taking care of housework, so I felt more secure and more confident in myself and in our marriage, but I feel like that confidence is now lost because I’m not working anymore. And I have spoken to my husband about this multiple times and he’s offered me so much comfort and reassurance, but I don’t know what to do and I don’t know where this feeling comes from.

How my mind works:
Me: I gave 100% to work and I give 100% to housework, so I automatically felt like I’m doing more.
Husband: he gives 100% to work and honestly he doesn’t help much with housework. Maybe just vacuuming. That’s all.

Idk if this makes sense but I feel like I was just doing more and it made me feel less lazy and confident. Does this mean I judged my husband? Absolutely not. But when it comes to me, I feel like he’ll judge me and call me lazy.

I have started therapy and I also plan on starting some hobbies to keep myself busy during my daytime.

I’m wondering if any others stay at home wives feel this way or where this feeling stems from.