Me 24F and my bf 27M have been together almost 3 years, he’s gotten so mean to me and is calling them “jokes”. i am autistic, i do understand i don’t take jokes well, but i do understand them. jokes are not supposed to hurt people and it’s for everyone to laugh.
He calls me “forehead” or “mustache” and i tell him so much how i hate it and it’s ruining my confidence. Just recently he called me honey boo boo to his friends on game and they all laughed about it. it’s cruel, every time i bring it up. i’m crying and begging him just to be nice to me, and he ends up some how making if about him and how if “he thinks to much he’ll go into a anxiety attack”, and “that’s just how i am, i shouldn’t have to hide my personality”, “i’ll just have to get back on adhd medication” “it all started when i stop smoking pòt” “i had to start nicotine again cus im overwhelmed” and all of this he’s actually looking hurt and i’m trying to believe him, it just feels like he’s trying to make something up. plus the fact it just got worse and worse after the first year of being together.
i literally can’t believe him, he was always like that to others sure i can give him that. but not me, not the person you talked about marriage to, not the person who loves your child unconditionally. i can’t ask anyone else or i’ll get the same thing “you need to break up with him” “why would you let him disrespect you”
i’m just going insane, and i love him, and i don’t want to leave my whole life is here.
am i stupid?